Yes I love you're eyes
and the way they glow
I love you for looking at me
and then you'd just go
and my heart fluttered
when you reached for a paper
and touched my hand
the little attention that you give me
and how you treat me like a man
the way you talk to me with your smile
especially when I'm alone
I feel a need
a pressure busting
something to get out
time is freezing in this moment
I'm so scared to ask you out
I'm on my knees and you're still standing
seems like an eternity away
but no... I'm way too scared
I'll try again another day
I've done so well for things to happen
I think I'll do it today
and all the while my mind is mapping
how happy you'll be
when I walk up to you and say,
"I really like you. Could we maybe grab a bite to eat?"
"Maybe I could walk you home?
I know it's much too soon,
but you're safe with me alone!"
And then


"No... I'm sorry... Ummm... I... I... I'm just not interested... I'm sorry.."


and you never knew you're place all this time has just been a waste thoughts i can't remember how stupid of me to think for something better I no longer wanna be in this place there's nothing to replace this empty feeling that I have and I guess I was right that there's something worthless inside
of me


Over a week goes by and finally people at the school really notice his absence
and then a problem seems apparent
A straight "A" student missing
and no trail really left
no notes or explaination
nothing of communication
to describe any reason he should go missing
just this sinking feeling
that some foul play's at work
for such as kid who never hurt
anybody
Everyone was sick with a frenzy
till one day it came to Jenny
and suddenly she knew the boy they were talking about
and suddenly all the other things that she'd cared about
came to a screeching halt
it couldn't be
he
she told herself
but as she thumbed through her old yearbook
all the photos melt
until she comes to the only one she now can see
The one she blew off
forgotten me...


and she remembered the walk from a half forgotten conversation
the direction and the places
How he'd asked her about where she lived
and how very much like friends
they had been
at a time
but she hadn't noticed
Seen his eyes watch her ever motion
or sparkle when she walked in the room
but now she could remember
and her heart hurt that cold November
but she had to see it through
She walked the lonely path home
and imagined him all alone
as he had always been
He had no real friends
He had no family to speak of
and somehow he had had me to love???
and down by the creek
where she never wanted to go
she forced herself to set foot to toe
and at the bottom
was a little row boat
The anchor was missing
but she could see a note
in the bottom in a little baggy
she grabbed the tie line
and it came free
hauling on the rope to come ashore
she opened the note
though she wasn't prepared for what she would read
It said:
I've loved you for a lifetime
but that's all it would ever be
I'm sorry that I've wasted your time
and I'm sorry that I could be
I didn't ask to be alive
but I fixed that mistake alright
I only wish I'd never been
and if I had it all
to do over again
I would have done it right the first time
instead of letting you save me




Tears streamed down her face
as she remember that day
it was why she didn't like this place
but she never dreamed it'd be
where she'd stopped someone from committing suicide
only to drive him back to end his life